Sunday's message was one of those that felt like Doug was talking right to me. Then seeing the eyes of the people leaving the service I realized the pressure was off, and I wasn't alone. The word trust was the one I heard the loudest. I find that I either trust too easily, then pull away once I realize I wasn't paying attention and protecting myself. Or I get the conspiracy theory going in my head and feel like the whole world is against me so why bother. Sunday confirmed what I had been ignoring... that not really trusting God doesn't help in the trusting people department.
Getting "connected" at FUSE, even as a volunteer, wasn't something I planned on doing. I wasn't sure how much was going to be expected of me, so the plan was to get in and get out. But, actually getting to know the other amazing people there, volunteers and non volunteers alike, has been a very pleasant surprise. It's so awesome that FUSE is a safe place where people aren't judged or made to feel like they just aren't quite good enough. There is so much encouragement and genuine love from the people who make up FUSE. There is no pressure to do more than we are capable of, but there is much encouragement and love from people who have taken time and truly want to know each person for who they really are.
Hanging around after the 4:30 service, talking to people and seeing all of the fellowship going on around the Refinery was awesome. It felt safe.
Have a great rest of the week!